Happenings

So we have had alot going on. Which has been good for me. I still have those good and bad days. More good than bad. When May comes I don't know how things will be. Its been hard seeing people pregnant and knowing that it isn't happening to me. We went to the dr in Tucson that delivered logan and she has done alot of research on hellp syndrome and why it happened to me. She thinks I have a blood clotting disorder, and that is why my blood pressure went so bad. So I had alot of test done and we go back in 2 weeks to get the results. Justin has also been so busy, he had his 10th birthday! I cant.
believe he is growing up so fast. He also had pine wood derby for the last time and he had to go and win 1st!!
Pine wood derby finals here we come! Well the mountain had lots of snow this year and
so we made the trek up and had so much fun. JJ's sister and her family, and his brother and his family and mom came The kids had so much fun, till it was all over and the wet clothes had to come off. Gosh it was cold on the toes.

Well we have alot coming up to. My baby sister is getting married in may and that we are looking forwards to. Plus I have to fit into a brides maid dress, so you know what that means, DIET!!! Wish me luck!! Kashlee's birthday, and some fun things for her.

The big "33"

Today is my sweet husbands birthday. We have been the same age for the couple of weeks and now he's the older one. I love him so much. I stand by his side at all times forever. I hope this year is a good one for you. Love ya

Hellp Syndrome

Well I has taken me a while to get to a place where I can talk about what has happened. Well you all know that me and JJ have to do invitro to help our family grow, so last Aug. we went down that very time consuming, expensive, and exciting journey. We found out that we were expecting and due in may. We were so excited and couldn't wait. We then found out that we were having twins and then found out that we lost one at 6 weeks. Well I had started having blood pressure problems at about 10 weeks and I was just keeping a close eye on it. Well at about 16 weeks I got strep, and my BP got really high, so they put me on BP meds. So on Monday before thanksgiving me and my friend took kashlee to the dr in mesa for the day. I woke up that morn. With a headache and my BP high. I went anyways to mesa since we only see these dr's once a year. Well we got home and I was so wiped out. I woke up at about 2:30 in the morning and could tell something wasn't right with me. My BP was 200/120! Me and JJ got in the car and headed to the hospital. After about 7 hours of not being able to get things under control because I was having preeclampsia they said that I would have to have the baby, and that they where sending me to Tucson, because in safford they couldn't take care of me. I had developed a conditon called !Hellp syndrome that is where your liver, kidneys, and platelets go crazy and start shutting down. They said that if I had waited any longer I wouldn't have made it. So they put me on a helicopter and flew me to Tucson to TMC. The dr's were wonderful. I had the baby on Tuesday night, We had a little boy, who we named Logan Lee Alder, he weighed 3.5 oz, and was 6.5 inches. We stayed there for 4 days and then we got to go home. I still was having problems with my BP. We have seen the dr's and they say that they are not sure why this happened or if it will happen again.
So that make us nervous and unsure about our future. I am still on BP meds. I have my good days and my bad ones. Things are getting easier. We are tying to get back to normal, or what ever that is. Justin had a hard time and kashlee is just too little to understand what happened. The nurses made foot prints of his little feet and so I put them in a picture frame with his name to remember him by. But we are grateful for what we understand, about the Plan of Salvation and our saviors plan for us. This has brought our family closer and put our life into perspective and whats important. I am truly blessed, And know that I am loved. Thank you everybody for your love and support. We love you

Love!

Today is my 11th anniversary!! We have been through so much these past years. I am so glad that we did it together. I love him so much and cant picture my life without him, He's the best!!

I just want to thank everyone threw this hard time for my family. Things haven't been easy. We have our good days and our bad. But we will heal with time. I don't know what I would do without family, friends, our ward family, Dr's, and special nurses. I am so grateful for what I know, we would be so lost without the knowledge of the plan of salvation. We love you all and thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Pregnancy!!!

Sorry I have been out of touch. Well a couple of months ago I washed my camera. Which I loved so much, well I went to buy a new one and I hate it. So that is why I do not have any pictures on this blog. So mad at myself!!!
Ok anyways the pregnancy was going so good till I got strep this week and had my blood pressure spike to 150/106 so the dr put my on meds and I am now high risk and have to go in every 2 weeks. So I hope I can get things under control and chill out (my dr. said}. But other than that things are good, and loving the fire in my fire place and having hot cocoa and toast late at night. Gota love it!

Crazy Summer

Gosh is the summer really gone?? According to the weather people it is now Fall, I coul'nt be happier. Well this past summer was a busy one. We had alot going on. We decied to go ahead and to do invitro. We called our dr, made the appt. and within about 2 months we transfered 3 embros. So drum role....... We are now expecting our third baby in May. We are so happy that smart people made it possible for us to continue our family. We are so blessed. So morning and night sickness has set in but its all good. And thankyou all for the prayers, fasting, and support we got from all our family and friends. Bacause we did invitro as a frozen cycle I have to have shots every day because of the process, my friend gives them to me every morning. So we have had lots of play days with our best friend park, swimming, and picnics. We have had some fun days.
Justin also started school, he is in the 4th grade. He loves his teacher, we love her to. Kashlee was so sad to say goodby to her budddy, she had to wear her backpack to take him to school, even if it is a McDonalds food backpack. I promise to be better at bloging, and keeping intouch.