Curlers

Ok so kashlee has the thinnest hair, and I don't know where she got it. Me and JJ have the thickest ever. Well her hair has started to grow and she came to me the other day and asked me to put curlers in it. The curlers didn't quite make to big of a difference, but it was fun and she sure looked CUTE!!

Good Times

Ok so my sister said that I needed to post Happy times. So fine here we go, just kidding. So we really have been so busy.... Justin and JJ have been busy doing baseball. JJ coached this years team, they were the Braves. a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_iA8wTw05fLvYrKffkrfr-d9eDgxfhHgJscbVKW1AEK1P0GA3pbX_wjUj-WKIwhkVQoonkBIPQN5dqZrf4-aDsDt108KijsBdFrvOnTTERy7X6rSbIyT1_Fsr-rpLx3czaem4y0h5J6I/s1600/Lake+018.JPG">
They had so much fun and finished the season with a WIN!! They were so good. We went to phoenix for the 4Th of July fireworks. My dad runs these buildings in Tempe so we went up the the 12Th floor right over the Tempe town lake were they set them up right on the bridge
. They were right in front of us. And of course we all had matching shirts. Got to love old navy!! We also took the kids, my parents and my sister and her family to the phoenix children's museum, the kids loved it!!
There was so much for the kids to do, and we could have spent the whole day there but the adults were tired, tired! We will have to do it again. Well the day a finally come... Kashlee got her glasses!! And boy does she look CUTE!!
Now half the battle is keeping them on her, Bribery in inevitable. Someday we hopefully wont have to fight her. Well summer is almost halfway over, We have done lots of swimming. We went to the lake two weekends ago with JJ's family. We bought a camper that had a/c, borrowed a boat and came home with sun burns.

MY blood pressure drives me nuts!! These last couple of weeks have been crazy!! When is life going to slow down? Well I forgot to take my BP meds on Friday and Saturday, I had been feeling funny but I thought it was from being so stressed and super busy. Well I took my BP on Saturday night and it was high!! SHeSH!!!!!!!!! I am trying to get off my BP meds, they are a constant reminder of why I am on them everyday!! Chill the dr would say, Oh ya so easy. Oh well? Well justin and kashlee both had there piano and dance recital. I just love these kids! They sure keep me busy, and I wouldnt have it any other way.

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May

So May is here.
I wasn't sure how I would feel about May. May has been on my mind since August. May Day everyone called it, I had no idea what that day would mean for me. You know those people who loose a limb and have phantom moments. Well I have been having those moments. The feel of a new baby in your arms, all scrunched up, the smell, and you are so important to the survival of that heaven sent baby. I can just feel him. We went to the temple the other day for my sisters first time. I know that he was there cause I couldn't help but cry. I wanted to be happy but part of me is still longing for him. The doctors say that I am fine after all the test I had done and that there had to be something wrong with logan. That is so hard, no answers. Not to mention all the bills I have now!! $1400.00 to be exact!! Their are a lot of other thing I could do with that much money. How about a vacation!!
Well I have been really trying to loose weight. I have lost 7 pounds,Not much but its a start. I have already gone down a size in my jeans. So I have alot to be happy for. I love my life, my kids, my awesome husband. I hate to be sad so am glad to replace May 1st for a happy day, my sister bridal shower. Young love!! I am so excited for her and the choices she has made, and to watch her grow up to be a awesome woman.
We had family pictures taken with JJ's family and this is one of my favorite!

Today

I found this poem today and it really says things that I don't know how to express. We went to the dr in Tucson again. I don't know why that every time I go to TMC my heart skips a beat and I just want to cry and run in and ask for my baby back. Crazy Huh. Well we are finding out that I don't have any blood clot disorder and maybe there was something wrong with logan's chromosomes and he would have struggled in life had he made it. I know that heavenly father has a plan, His plan, and we are just part of it. He is preparing for something big in heaven and I am so glad to be somewhat apart of it in some way.

My butterfly By Kimberly de Montbrun

I long to feel the soft weight of you
to welcome you home, with kisses
on silky round cheeks.


Instead my arms ache with the
weight of your absence,
the empty places that were meant for you
to grow into.


My love for you will last an eternity.
My hopes and dreams now carried
on the fragile wings of each butterfly passing
compelling me to pause,
to savor each moment,


each flutter in my heart,
your wings.

Happenings

So we have had alot going on. Which has been good for me. I still have those good and bad days. More good than bad. When May comes I don't know how things will be. Its been hard seeing people pregnant and knowing that it isn't happening to me. We went to the dr in Tucson that delivered logan and she has done alot of research on hellp syndrome and why it happened to me. She thinks I have a blood clotting disorder, and that is why my blood pressure went so bad. So I had alot of test done and we go back in 2 weeks to get the results. Justin has also been so busy, he had his 10th birthday! I cant.
believe he is growing up so fast. He also had pine wood derby for the last time and he had to go and win 1st!!
Pine wood derby finals here we come! Well the mountain had lots of snow this year and
so we made the trek up and had so much fun. JJ's sister and her family, and his brother and his family and mom came The kids had so much fun, till it was all over and the wet clothes had to come off. Gosh it was cold on the toes.

Well we have alot coming up to. My baby sister is getting married in may and that we are looking forwards to. Plus I have to fit into a brides maid dress, so you know what that means, DIET!!! Wish me luck!! Kashlee's birthday, and some fun things for her.

The big "33"

Today is my sweet husbands birthday. We have been the same age for the couple of weeks and now he's the older one. I love him so much. I stand by his side at all times forever. I hope this year is a good one for you. Love ya